You never know how it hurts before it hurts so much that you're asking yourself why you are allowing someone else control your emotions. We all want things to go the way we want them too, our way. It is never like that, especially when someone else is involved.
The question that comes back is why, why did it happen that way? How come I allowed myself to be so vulnerable?
We might forgive yes, even though we didn't get a proper apology. Forgetting is another thing. A totally different one. Writing helps sometimes you know, pouring your feelings on a piece of paper instead of defecating the hate that you have on the person concerned.
No. I choose not to allow myself to get to that degree. Refused to close the door to a generous soul that would decide to stop by my heart and heal it. Decided that it was time for me to go forward, because I can't definitely go backwards. I know what I'm worth, we all know what we are worth. There were, is and shall not be any pleading involved when you know that something is not going to work. You just say "F*ck it", stand up, take your backpack and go like an adventurer. Because life is an adventure.
It heals after some time; you just look at the person on your right and say thank you to the previous because without that person, love would not have been right before your eyes kissing your forehead :-)
That cold is trying to make me mad but in Jesus name, all my enemies should not prosper hahaha
No but seriously, can you believe that it's colder than Alaska? For me, it could never be worst than Alaska but those people are enjoying 3 Fahrenheit. It's alright.
I'm Miss Heitch, twenty something in a country that I did not necessarily chose to be in. Not quite. Sometimes I feel like the time is frozen and that the years pass by like hours. Or maybe it's because I still have a teenager's appearance... Got it several times. People who thought that I was "their age".
And it's more a compliment than anything.
Now I'm rambling... I'm Heitch, 20 something, in college, in a country where it's cold 9 months of the year. Great! I didn't know what to expect coming here four years ago but now I know. Little sister, a father... that's it for my family. Well let's just not go there...
I have a few friends, I think about them like La crème de la crème, because they are for me. The ladies, very inspirational, hard working and achievers. The gentlemen very funny and comprehensive. They are very few actually.
I stopped thinking about the "no new friends" in 2013, so I am definitely looking forward meeting new nice people this year.
